Tuesday, September 24, 2013

A Celebration of Life

Forty-fifth wedding anniversary, wish you could have been here to have your little ha-ha’s with your friends, to toast and kiss, I miss your kisses. I miss you most of all, my love.
To celebrate, our friend Gloria, and my new friend Marcie took me out to lunch, a movie, and dessert. The shrimp were fresh and tender. The Family, a dark comedy, entertained to perfection, and then I had dark chocolate….
I told the girls they treated me to a movie and dessert more than you would have. We had a little ceremony with a gift; they promised to celebrate with me, the awesome women in my life will share this anniversary with you.
It wasn’t the same without you, but I have love and friends, so God has blessed me. All I can say is “Thank you, God, for giving me the best friends.”

And “Thanks for almost forty-five years with my guy.”

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Happy Anniversary, Honey, I Miss You

What I want the most, I can’t have; other than possibly by dying. Well, there’s a leap of faith for you. By all that is holy, it’s forbidden. Thank you, God, for laying down the rules so clearly. I’m not afraid to die, but I sure as hell, don’t want to right now. The last forty-five years have taught me how to love and be happy. Thank you, Kirt, happy anniversary, Honey. I love you beyond measure.
God, YOU gave me someone I treasure; thank you very much. Our three way relationship was a great gift. So why did you take him away now? I talk to YOU every day, well, maybe, not every day; living takes up so much of each day. I’m so sorry; have I told YOU what a stupid shit YOU have in me?  I thought we talked frequently; it’s so difficult to distinguish what I want from what YOU want. I think I’m doing YOUR will and then YOU take away the one who gave me love and confidence.
Nothing gets attention like pain; YOU have my attention; could YOU just speak a little more clearly without so much pain. I have enough faith that I believe my darling Kirt, beautiful spirit energy evolved from YOU is basking in your beautiful love, and thank YOU for sharing my husband with me.

I’m scared, could really use some strength and grace now,PLEASE,  and THANKS for sure.

Sunday, September 15, 2013

My Husband

Nine weeks ago today my Darling died
Empty space in his place
Again this day I cried
I revere my creator
I love my life
Tears spring from my eyes
I realize, my Honey
All I really wanna be
Is your wife