What I want the most, I can’t have;
other than possibly by dying. Well,
there’s a leap of faith for you. By all that is holy, it’s forbidden. Thank
you, God, for laying down the rules so clearly. I’m not afraid to die, but I
sure as hell, don’t want to right now. The last forty-five years have taught me
how to love and be happy. Thank you, Kirt, happy anniversary, Honey. I love you
beyond measure.
God, YOU gave me someone I
treasure; thank you very much. Our three way relationship was a great gift. So
why did you take him away now? I talk to YOU every day, well, maybe, not every day; living takes up so much of
each day. I’m so sorry; have I told YOU what a stupid shit YOU have in me? I thought we talked frequently; it’s so
difficult to distinguish what I want from what YOU want. I think I’m doing YOUR will and then YOU take away the one who gave me love and confidence.
Nothing gets attention like pain;
YOU have my attention; could YOU just speak a little more clearly without so
much pain. I have enough faith that I believe my darling Kirt, beautiful spirit
energy evolved from YOU is basking in your beautiful love, and thank YOU for sharing my husband with me.
I’m scared, could really use some
strength and grace now,PLEASE, and THANKS for sure.
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