Does death come in 3’s or does the
mind fill in details to prove beliefs?
I hadn’t lost anybody “close” to me
in a long time. My Uncle Lou died about thirteen years ago. I loved him with a
big heart little girl crush. Writing this gets me lost in memories of a
man with rare natural class. I remember my aunt telling me
something about death and three, but blew it off, so I can’t tell you about
the other two.
My father died the year I graduated
from high school. Walking to work with my dog, Donovan, singing Parsley, Sage,
Rosemary and Thyme; she once was a friend of mine is pretty much my best memory
of the time. I was angry and scared, but too dumb to know it at the time.
You may recall me telling about my
dog Lola dying shortly after Kirt, and now my best friend from childhood; that’s
three loved ones taken away.
Death touches us HARD, slapping us
around with no regard for our feelings. It tests us as organisms in a dish. How
much can we take? Will we respond in a healthy way, surviving and, maybe, thriving
or does this abuse cause us to become bitter, to wither emotionally, as my
friend did, and die?
Is this cruel fate, or the loving
hand of God? But for gentle transitions or the smile on my husband’s face after he died and
mini visitations, I might doubt. Prayers for understanding and acceptance will
be answered, when I get my shit together and am ready, which I pray God will be
soon.
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