My Darling, I missed you so today!
Thanksgiving dinner without you, I can tell you it felt strange to be with
people, but not you. After forty-five holidays with you I carried you in my
heart today. We enjoyed the day. I worried that I’d break down, missing you. I
cried thinking about it, but today I just lived the day as it came.
Tonight as twilight dwindled, I sat
on the balcony thinking about how we loved the view of the ocean at dusk. I
smiled as I lingered over a lifetime of sunsets with my best guy. Remembering
how much you love me made me smile. The ache I usually feel from missing you
didn’t grab me. I felt grateful for my life with you without the searing pain,
a first.
My hosts, people whose company
we’ve enjoyed a handful of times, were as charming as ever. My dear hostess
prepared a feast for the holiday. The table display deserved a magazine cover.
Did I tell you the food was good? Yum.
The two other dinner guests rounded
out the table nicely with friendly conversation. My first holiday dinner
without you didn’t totally suck; it was nice. I had a good time, and then our
crazy lady bud, Adri arrived. I had somebody I love a bunch in the house. Before
long it was time to go home. I lived through one of those bench mark days I’ve
been dreading.
For all the tears and fears the pre
holiday anticipation generated Thanksgiving couldn’t have been better, unless
of course, you were here. I’m so
stuffed.
Thanks God, for my friends, you
place the best people in my life. And
thanks for all the years with a great guy who loved me more than I could
possibly have deserved.
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